It was crazy to say it the way that I did, I can see the panic in her eyes. But it's not what I meant, not quite anyway. "No, not all the time. Just sometimes. Come spend the night. With me," I add the last, the words feeling weighty and significant. How does someone suggest what I'm suggesting? I might have a talent for knowing what to say on camera, but here I feel so out of my depth and now my cheeks are burning and red.